decisions, decisions
decisions. ever since i was younger i can remember having a hard time deciding anything. i would stress over the simplest of things; what to wear that day, what to do that weekend, how to fix my hair the next day.
ridiculous? yes. stupid? no.
you see, even though those things are trifle and insignificant in the overall scheme of life, what i had come to realize is that every single decision we make has an outcome. it’s important that we analyze the situation and pick the best option for ourselves, not only at that very moment in life, but for our future selves as well.
as i became older and the decisions that i began to face started to become more and more life changing (college, a career, etc.) i quickly became overwhelmed. what was i supposed to do? what was it that God wanted me to do? should i follow my parents’ advice or my gut? did i even know what my gut wanted me to do? do i take the easy route or the scary route? the thought that i might make a wrong decision scared me immensely.
after many long nights of anxious worrying and plotting out the path my life would take with each option, i finally made my decisions. and even though it was important that i made those decisions, the decisions that i made were not the most important thing that i came out with from that process. through the decision making process of choosing a college (i’m still undecided about that career choice) i learned that the only bad decision is not making decisions at all. if you sit back and allow the world to make decisions for you, your only losing yourself. and in this big, crazy, hunk of a sphere floating in space, the only thing you know for certain that you have is yourself.
so go out and make some decisions. make some sane ones, some crazy ones. some realistic ones, some unrealistic ones. some smart ones, some stupid ones. and some that are just plain out of this world. and yes, it’s ok to be scared of decisions. but don’t fear the act of making a decision. fear the lack of making a decision, and in turn, handing over the rights to your own life.
